Tuesday, September 22, 2009


Joel and I made an unplanned trip to Colorado this weekend (two days in the car, ugh) so that we could surprise our parents and grandparents. The drive was lame, but it's good to be home.

My grandpa was just diagnosed with cancer and doesn't have near enough time to spend with us left, so we'll be spending the week here hanging out with him and the rest of the family. He's starting chemo on Friday. Please pray for him, my grandma, and the rest of my family and send good vibes our way. Go spend some good times with your loved ones.

Friday, September 18, 2009

good vibrations

Today has been surprisingly fun! Ashley and Eli stopped in to work on a new LAKE t-shirt design. I won't show you any peeks yet (because I'm not sure which one they'll pick!), but I will show you a look at the new LAKE album, Let's Build A Roof! I was able to do photography for it, and while Ashley designed it, I put it together and got it into production. Exciting!

There were also surprise visits from Nick and Julia of No Kids, Phil Elverum, Karl Blau, Tara Jane O'Neil, Vanessa Lang and Brian! SO FUN. I love it when I get to see people that I really adore, even if it's just for a short amount of time. No Kids is touring with Mount Eerie, Karl Blau and TJO. They're playing in Oly next week. CAN'T WAIT!

The rest of my day has been spent waiting on my slow, slow computer to load large, large files. I've been piecing together the cover for Angelo Spencer's new record (made by Sarah Utter -- whose art I
LOVE. I will own one of her own paintings someday.) via scanning and Photoshop, and a really sweet new Curious Mystery tour poster. It looks so awesome.

Tonight we have plans to go see our friends Alex and Jessi before they move to Chicago (SUPER SAD), and maybe stop by our friend Brian's house for his birthday show (14 bands - wtf).

I have to say though, last night was
SO AWESOME! The Beach Boys were really sweet. There were only two of the original members, but the rest of the dudes in the band sounded like the original members, and they played literally all of the hits, plus a bunch of other songs I didn't even realize I wanted to hear, and two covers. The best part of the night was hearing "God Only Knows", "Good Vibrations" and "Kokomo" all in a row. SO RAD. We weren't supposed to take pictures, but I had to sneak one (very bad!) picture in, just as photographic evidence that we got to see them. I'm glad we payed the big bucks (to us) and went to see them. We probably won't ever get to again.

I'll end this with a pretty picture of the pretty view of the Puget Sound driving away from our last house here in Olympia. Have a good weekend!


Friday, September 11, 2009

for me to hold myself accountable

There are several things that I feel that I can improve on (more than several -- there are so many!) to be completely happy, healthy, more confident, and to be able to give to others in the ways that I feel like I should. This year has been all about taking steps to be a better person, and though I feel like I am making progress already (I'll hopefully always be making progress), it is a slow process.

My Washington BFF, Beth, suggested that I start writing a blog (hey, I've
had a few over the years -- maybe I should write in them!) to hold myself accountable to the decisions that I'm making, and to prioritize and hopefully stay on track. I guess this is the beginning of what will hopefully help get me to where I want to be.

Below are a few things in my life that I would like to change and work on -- and hopefully along the way, I'll learn a few things and be able to be a better person, and a better friend. I am ready to openly talk about our (Joel and I) goals and get to work to make things awesome.
Oh, finances -- we need to settle on a budget and stick to it! I joined mint.com last month to see where we were actually spending our money, and there weren't many surprises. Joel and I spend way too much on thrifting (this is mostly my doing) and eating out (which is a bummer, not just financially). We have a credit card bill of $2,000 left (which we have cut in half and then some already!) from buying a computer, moving expenses, traveling, our car breaking down (we spent a whopping $800 to fix it!), and miscellaneous things. No more using the credit card! It is my goal to pay this off by the end of the year (if not sooner (small goal #1)). After paying my student loan, utilities, and our Comcast payment, I will be putting the rest of one of my paychecks (the other goes to rent) towards the credit card bill. With this, the two (actually three, though I know I will never get paid for the third) outstanding invoices I have out for shoots (though it has been months, so you never know with those either), and with getting our deposit back from moving out (we got a place of our own!) all going towards the credit card, it seems TOTALLY doable. I am also going to do all that I can to take $50 out of every paycheck to put into a savings account (which we will open next week (small goal #2!)). Seems hard, but fingers crossed! To help with all of this, I am taking the cue of several blogs that I read (Mostly Mod, LobotoME, Simply Lovely, and two ellie, for example) and starting on my own Spending Hiatus. No more foolish spending for things I don't need! Seriously! I'll try to blog about this to stay accountable to myself. Maybe I can just blog about the things I want, like so many other people do. :)

Some people that are part of the spending hiatus have decided to only spend money when they have sold something first (via
ebay, bigcartel shops, etsy, second hand stores). I don't necessarily need anything (other than to be out of debt), so I have plans to set up my own etsy (and possibly ebay a few things, depending) to get rid of the cute things that are cluttering my house. I have an abundance of fabric (literally overflowing from cabinets and closets), and housewares that I've picked up from thrifting. In the next month, I will try my hardest to get an etsy shop together (Small goal #3). This will help clear my house of clutter, which in turn will clear my mind. I've slowly been ridding myself of the people who fill my mind with drama and stress, and am moving onto materialistic things. When we moved, we took about 10 trips to the Goodwill to get rid of things, but maybe we need to make a few more. In October, we will be moving one more (and hopefully final for a while) time, into a cottage next door to where we live now. I want to declutter as much as I can before the move so that our space doesn't feel so cramped, and we actually enjoy EVERYTHING that we have. If it doesn't fit into the "need" or "love" categories in our life, we have to let it go. Seems simple enough, right?

Probably one of the things that I think about the most out of my day, if not being the number one thing, is getting healthy. I joined
Weight Watchers a year ago in August, and lost 18 lbs by Christmas (which is kind of a big deal for me, considering I'd never given a healthy diet or exercise a second thought until then. I mean, I had obviously thought about it, but didn't have the understanding or willpower to turn things around until then. And, I'm still working on that). Over Christmas last year (a ridiculous 4-day trip to Colorado from Washington in the biggest blizzard ever, and two weeks home with my family and friends), I gained 9 lbs back. 9 pounds. No joke. Over the past eight months, I have probably lost and regained those same 9 pounds 4 or 5 times, and have stayed between the 230s and 220s the entire time. I lost those 9 pounds, but have gained a couple, and lost a few. I'm back at -16.6, 225.8 lbs. I am getting REAL this time.

I realize that part of the secret is to actually accept yourself for who you are and what you already look like, and that everything else will come with hard work. I'm accepting myself for who I am now, and just want to become a better, healthier person. I wouldn't say that joining Weight Watchers has been a waste of time
at all. Not even close to one. Without it, I probably would have gained 50 more pounds (who knows, right?), and I am learning how to cook, prepare healthy meals, and exercise. And every week (or as often as I want), I have a room full of people to give me advice, and an entire website full of articles and message boards to learn from.

I joined a gym for the first time in my life at the beginning of the year, and even though it's hard to go, every time that I've gone, it has been
SO worth it. I feel better, I am healthier, and I'm actually losing weight. I've gone down one dress size, and am fitting into clothes that I haven't been able to wear in a year. I joined a running club last winter, when honestly, running is the last thing I would ever want to do. I want to hold myself accountable to eating meals that I made (or with friends) at least 6 days out of the week, for breakfast, lunch, and dinner (this will also help with the finances (Small goal #4))! I want to cut out processed foods as much as I can, and make one or two new recipes once or twice a week to keep things exciting, and keep me focused and motivated (Small goal #5). I want to exercise at least three to four times a week (which seems small, but is a big step -- I stopped doing it!), and be active (walking to work (it's $4 to park the car anyway! I just got a free bus pass for the rainy days.), taking a bike ride) for at least 30 minutes a day for the rest of the week, and track my food and activity via WeightWatchers.com daily (Small goal #6). I want to have lost 30 pounds by the end of the year (Small goal #7), leaving me with 70 pounds left after that.

Along these lines, I need to limit my television (we have Netflix and watch it online) and internet use, and get enough sleep (at least 7-8 hours a night)
(Small goal #8), which has actually been fairly easy since moving to Olympia, unlike when we were living in NY and I would be up until 10am. By cutting back on TV and the net, I can use my time wisely to sew, craft, crochet, embroider, and learn to knit! Not to mention edit photos that I need to work on, update my website and flickr, set up new photo shoots, and respond to emails in a timely manner (within 24 hours) (Small goal #9), and actually just create something every day.

I will be to work on time every day, and I will work hard for the hours that I'm there. I will use the time that I have after work to hang out with friends, invite people over for dinner, to take walks, to play cards and board games, and to go on adventures! I will say yes to hanging out with people at least twice a week, I will call old friends and talk to them just because I love them (and to let them know!), I will send and respond to mail in a timely fashion. I will give gifts to friends and acquaintances to show them that I care
(Small goals #10).

I doubt my upcoming posts will ever be this long again, but typing out my goals and thoughts at the beginning of some major life overhauling should help put me in the right frame of mind to have these goals in my sight and help me stay on track and be accountable to myself, and to my friends. Thanks for letting me get this out, and for reading it if you made it this far. :)